A Lesson in Self – Annihilation

    

Where am I?

Unsighted in the dark

I stumble over things with blind eye

I have finally fallen with no bulwark

   

I faintly remember my life

Disgust for the existence I had

Left in isolation like a lowlife

In all aspects of my time I was deceived

  

 Why me? I cried to god

I waited, without any answer

I was left in an untrod

Let down yet again, a failure

    

Departing was my only option

Cutting my wrists

Brought me retribution

From my sinfulness

   

Many times I attempted to die

That many times I failed in vain

'My last oppurtunity' I whispered, with a sigh

I fell from the tallest building, crashing down like a plane

   

'I have landed somewhere' I inferred, finally!

'But where am I' I thought feeling my blains

I listened to the souls howling in agony

Saw two black like shadows with huge chains

   

Chaining my legs and hands, to hell I was dragged

In glee they threw me in the lake of burning sulphur, obeying satan

Screaming with ghastliness I fell, with excruciating pain I sagged

In comparison my life was much sweeter, 'What have I done?'

      

NOOOOOO! I woke up panting from the nightmare

'Forgive me Lord' I prayed in delight

For trials and tribulations are parts of life, for my welfare

My death is only god's right

    

I was inspired to write about self annihilation. At least one point in our lives we go down 'that' road. There is always a solution to our problem irrespective of the solution being sweet or sour. If there's a will, there's always a way. Hope this poem came out well.

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A Bloodcurdling Nightmare

                                         CRIMSON ADDICTION

I see him near a window too high
Under the moonlight, he looks mysteriously pale
A young stunning woman in his hands, I sigh
She's hypnotised, her fingers clenched onto his veil

With terror, I watch him bite her
Her excruciating screams deafen my ears
He sucks her dry in pleasure
Blood dripping from his ashy lips, he sneers

He commands his help, a human
They leap leaving the corpse behind
In his black cloak, he elegantly descends with caution
He draws in my scent, for him a spellbind

I try to hide under a mantle in fright
Within a flash his eyes meet mine, he smirks
Before leaving the crime scene with delight
I discern it's only a beginning as danger lurks

 ----------------End Of Thirst1-------------------



                                              HOSTAGE OF DESIRE

I am in his living room frozen
No recollection how I got here, a bewilder
My intuition prompting me to run
I see the strangest manifestation ever

At the entrance, three women bounded by ropes
Hands above their heads with agony and pain
They ask me to escape with hopes
I run for my life without constrain

All I see is a huge barren land
No place to hide, my will unshaken
I stop not wanting to take another step in this wasteland
Those poor women need help, I reckon

As I turn back, I see him standing like a portrait with his slave
I tell him that I want to stay, not run away
His eyes exemplifies his enduring love
Without words I follow him midway

As we approach other end of his omnious fort
I hear kid's laughter, the bounded women's children
Eldest of them, a pretty girl indulged in a sport
With thirst in his eyes, he catches her attention

She stands like a sculpture, riveted
He advances seeing her bloodstream
To protect her, in horrid
'Play somewhere else', I scream

Breaking his eye contact, she turns to me swiftly
Not knowing what has happened
He then enters a room weakly
My hands on ears, his howl hearkened

I shiver in horror not knowing whom he devoured
With blood stains all over
He glances painfully at me, overpowered
A curse he bears a killer

Fear grips my legs and hands
Making me paralyse
Taking my face in his hands
He deeply bores into my eyes

To proclaim his undying devotion
His obsession will never fade, I infer
That I am an object of his affection
Dying while living, I have become his prisoner forever.

 ----------------End Of Thirst 2-------------------




This is yet another poem about a nightmare I had many months back which was apparently a warning to my conscious mind. Please leave comments below.

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Sacrifice

You were quick and astute
I was naive and susceptible
Why didn’t I see the real you
Did you think life can be a dabble

You hid behind the pretty mask
How was I to comprehend?
Love made me a bask
Your false pretences, I was portended

Dreams have become my other world
I see you running in fear
Dashing down while the stairs whirled
He is chasing you like a deer

I knock his gun off
And with a blow on his head, he falls
You take my hand ahead of a trough
And with a heavy valise we climb the stairs

He pursues with a thirst of demise
Before I know, he grabs me to a patio
All you can hear are my anguish cries
While he torments and violates me like a psycho

At least I know that I have protected you
He chokes me with all his strength
With painful eyes you stare at me as I whisper ‘I love you’
Before I close my eyes and leave you beneath

What is the point in holding me now?
Your tears will never bring me back
The truth, you will never know
That it was you who killed me.

This was a dream I had today and wanted to write about it. This is my first poem. Hope it came out well.

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